Back, and not TRYING this time!!

Wow it's been a while and so much has happened. Not even gonna get into all the things that went wrong or all the things that have happened since my last post. I'm just going to focus on now and the future. I'm also not going to say that this time will be the last time because i've always said that and it always seemed to doom me to failure. This time i will simply DO my best, not TRY to do my best and see where that takes me.
I finally joined a gym over the weekend and tonight i took the first step in dealing with my inner issues and went and faced all those people who i had always assumed were laughing at me or talking behind my back. While i was totally uncomfortable, i still did it. I started with 5 min of a calorie burning program on treadmill (burned 52 calories) and then did about 15 min. of upper body strength training on weight machines. Then i did 15 min on a bicycle (burned 101 calories) and followed that with 32 min. on treadmill again on a calorie burning routine but i upped the speed and the incline throughout the workout (burned 298 calories). It was awesome!!! I feel so refreshed and so good. I just hope i can keep up the excitement so that i can continue to go and work out.
My goal starting tomorrow is to drink 120 oz. of water a day (half my body weight). Yes, i'm up to a whopping 240 lbs. Again, i'm not going to focus on the whys or hows, i'm just going to focus on the now. I also am going to try to eat every 2 to 3 hours healthy meals and snacks and make sure i get plenty of protein. No more fried foods, white flours, pork, sugars, or sodas. It's a lot, but i've tried weaning myself before and that hasn't work so this time i'm just going to cut it out cold turkey. I always tell people who smoke that it can't be that hard to quit, they just have to want to do it. Now i guess it's time i practice what i preach.
Met a lot of really nice people through the comp i started last time and i hope some of you will still bother to stop and send me a note sometime. Would really appreciate the support and i'm sorry for giving up on you all before. I know that i gave up on myself, but i feel that i also gave up on everyone who believed in me. Hope everyone has a blessed night and until next post.......