My First Triumph

Okay, so i couldn't take the suspense anymore. I had to know if all my hard work was paying off at least a little bit, so i went to my dads and borrowed his scale. It is ages old, but has a nifty little level thing on it where you can actually zero it. I'm not sure how close it would be to the scale that i used at my work, but i also dont' know how often i'll be able to check it there, so i guess from now on i'll just use his... Anyway... (drumroll please) According to what i weighed at work and what my dad's scale said, i lost 5 lbs. I'm down to 226 on my dads scale. WOOO HOOO!!!! Okay, so realistically, taking five lbs. out of 90 that i want to lose is a far cry from getting anywhere, but i least i know i'm not doing all of this for nothing. Today has been the only day so far i have not been able to walk. I clocked how far it is from the bottom of the hill by our house to the closest gas station, and it was a half a mile.. so from the bottom of the hill to phillips 66 and back is a mile.. Not to mention that our hill is like climbing a cliff. We live in Arkansas so we don't get a whole lot of bad weather in the winter but this hill is so steep if we get an ice storm everyone has to park at the bottom and walk up. The other day on my way back from the gas station i guess i got an extra boost of energy and i managed to make it over halfway up the hill without slowing down or stopping. Usually a quarter of the way up i'm doubled over trying to get my breathe.. lol.

My diet is going extremely well if i do say so myself. I stick mainly to vegetables making sure to eat enough chicken or peanut butter so that i get enough protein. I just got home from getting groceries, and i bet the cashier thought i was a vegetarian. I even bought a little bag of snow peas and tried those. Not too bad.. I was soooo hungry and i've been trying to find little things that i can nibble on and it will kill the munchies, so instead of snacking on cheeze its on the way home, i snacked on snow peas. About 5 of them and i was good. I have also noticed now that when i eat meals, i get less on my plate than i used to, but i end up not wanting to eat it all. The other day i caught myself forcing myself to eat something just because it was on my plate. At least i was conscious enough while eating instead of just shoving it down my throat to stop and realize what i was doing, tell myself how stupid i was being, and go put the rest of it up for later. I have since caught myself doing that a lot. And i've also found that i can stop when i'm not hungry anymore... not when i'm full. I think that's making a big difference. Before i would get 2 or 3 servings at each meal, now i can hardly finish one. I know it's only been a little over a week, but i've never lasted an entire week before. After the first couple of days and feeling like there was nothing i could do and i was just always going to be fat, i would give up and decide i was only happy if i could eat. Now i'm starting to realize that i can eat... just different food and not so much. Do i miss my mashed potatoes and pasta??? YOU BET!! But it's not killing me not having it. And as for the pasta, i can do whole wheat. Whole wheat spaghetti is a lot better than it sounds, and it's one thing that i can get the rest of the family to eat also. They say they can't really tell a difference. The one thing i'm having a problem with still is water. I HATE water. However, i have almost quit sodas completely.. my new beverage of choice is tea. I found out that caffeinated tea with sugar is just as bad as a soda though. I can do the decaff, that doesn't bother me, but i've always been skeptical of the sugar substitues. I did buy a big bag of splenda tonight to try in my tea though. I still need to work on more water, but at least i can drink a glass of tea and not feel as guilty. Can't wait till next mon. to reweigh myself. Am really looking forward to getting below 200!